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hi [lukeysgirl]
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2003-05-22 12:49:54 |
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hey.... sure i'll read ur poems... well.. do drop by and leave a note in my diary.. thanx! [pulp_squlp]
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2002-08-28 03:56:08 |
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hey! i'd love to go look at your poems! thanks for telling me where they are. i'm sure they'll be great!! [pokeyluckyduckyinluv]
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2002-08-10 11:48:06 |
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i really wish u had a diary that u kept up on!thanks for all ur comments.i'll go to ur poems page! =) [whispersweetwords]
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2002-08-09 23:14:58 |
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and i forgot to add that I'M also sorry that you're leaving. you're a great bud. come back sometimes...but i'll miss you. i hope life get's better for you. don't try to make it worse, hun. you've got alot to live for. you should know that. alot of people love you, remember that. i'll chat with you later. =) i'll miss your comments! byes babe. ~pokey~ [pokeyluckyduckyinluv]
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2002-08-02 11:26:27 |
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i'm really sorry about what happened with your mom...and i'm sorry she said those things to you. you don't deserve to be treated like that. do you have enough self respect? that's the first step to ignoring things that you don't want to do. self respect helps you raise yourself up and feel confident about things. i hope you feel better. =) ~pokey~ [pokeyluckyduckyinluv]
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2002-08-02 11:24:13 |
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hun don't leave!that anonymous is an asshole.let them b.don't pay attention to it.if u ever need me hit me up at my diary n my aim s/n is GhEttOdoLLBaBY69 or angelbabee6906.plz don't stop writing.plz.lylas! [whispersweetwords]
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2002-07-25 02:21:44 |
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Scarlet I'm very sad that you've decided to stop writing in here. But, if you feel that you don't want to write about things anymore, then of course, it's your choice. Just keep safe and keep happy. Please. Luv *~Namie~* aka *DarkAngelButterfly* [DarkAngelsTormentMe]
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2002-07-24 07:11:25 |
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Aw please don't stop writing in your diary- I think its a great diary- and just ignore that one individual (ie the anonymous one) who keeps on making nasty untruthful comments!! As someone above said- (actually no I thnik it was in another entry) don't blame yourself. Hope your mum gets better- and please write again? God Bless [cant_think]
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2002-07-23 12:12:55 |
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hey.. thanx for the comment.. whyd you quit writing.. hope to hear from you soon.. im out ..HsG [Feelings Inside Me]
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2002-07-21 11:22:25 |
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Dont be done!!we'll miss you! [ilikesparklez]
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2002-07-20 17:14:08 |
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hey whats up!? ive jsut made myselef a new diary and i jsut wanted to stop in and say hello and that id love to read ur diary and comment, cuz i like meetin new people on here, and im a good listener/reader and i try and leave the best advice that i can so if u want get to know me or sumthin like that come check my diary out and i promise to go read urs too!! and if not then i hope ur life is wonderful and everything else! <3 christi lynn! and dont forget *{* You've gotta dance like no one is watching, you've gotta sing like no one is listening, and best of all you've gotta love like it's never going to hurt *}* and yes i know ive sent this to alot of people but im just friendly thats all [DePreSSed ChyCkk]
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2002-07-19 17:56:54 |
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wow, I really like that quote from eternally lost. that totally rocks! But yeah Shannon, I'm def gonna miss your entries, but I hope ya keep in touch with me, cuz I wanna know what's goin on with you, good or bad. I loves you! [Tissla]
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2002-07-19 17:56:47 |
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"...and her presense is still felt through this air of thick emotions and I can still feel her soul pour through the words never spoken and the lines never read.. and those... now gone the embodiment of the only true beauty my heart can see.. will forever be etched into my soul's very core" I've never been good with goodbyes or "i'll miss yous" so the line I quoted from a poem I wrote.. and it seems to fit perfectly with this. Much love, *~Ashes~* [Eternally Lost]
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2002-07-19 17:18:18 |
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I will miss hearing your stories!! I hope all goes well and you keep in touch with me one on one. Lots~A~Luv Holly* [shy_angel_07]
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2002-07-19 11:25:21 |
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i dont wanna repeat wut the other peson said so, i'm gonna miss ur writing, and hope ur doing well. latas! [XCheer roxstrX]
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2002-07-18 12:39:30 |
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Hey girl. Cheer up. I know it might seem impossible right now, but none of what has happened to you with your mother is your fault. If she was a strong person, she would have gone to the cops long long ago, but obivously she has some issues she's still needing to get out, and maybe some of them have to do with you, but the fact that she lost a baby is not your fault. Son't let her manipulate you like that. I know you're stronger than that, and I know you will make it out of all this. so keep your head up. I love you girl. g'night! [Tissla]
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2002-07-17 23:37:43 |
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Oh sweetie, I'm so sorry to hear that.. but please don't blame yourself.. you couldn't have provented it really. The good thing is that your mom is still alive. I hope your holding up okay too.. I'm thinking of you, *~Ashes~* [Eternally Lost]
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2002-07-17 18:37:48 |
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PLease shannon!!Don't blame yourself things will only get worse. Tell your mom we are praying for her. ANd please don't blame yourself and don;t let it get to you. And if you need anything you can talk to me. You know i am always here for you anytime!! Holly* [shy_angel_07]
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2002-07-17 13:17:07 |
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It's ok, its not all your fault. blaming yourself, will only make you feel worse. blame is just another stage of grieving. [XCheer roxstrX]
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2002-07-17 11:50:39 |
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What you see here is an insolent self-advertisement of a brand new ADVICE DIARY, unprofessional, and blissfully irresponsible. Open your soul, open your heart, open your liver and ask for advice You’ll love it. [Ultima Ratio Regis]
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2002-07-17 10:06:52 |
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hope ur mum gets better.... we'll all pray for her... btw.. hope u would read my diary and leave a comment... thanks [pulp_squlp]
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2002-07-17 09:56:54 |
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if tomorrow starts without me...
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i think u need a kiss*~muha~* [XCheer roxstrX]
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2002-07-16 13:22:30 |
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if tomorrow starts without me...
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Anonomous: Please leave Shannon alone!!! She is having a hard enought time with you and you crazy S***!!! Shannon, I wish you the best with everything you do and hope you'll try and make the best choices that you posibly can. If you need me you know where to find me. I'm on all the time. Holly* Have you thought anymore about what me and you were talking about? Please offline im me if i'm not on but i really am worried about you and i want you to hellp yourself so somewone else can help yuo too!! :) God Bless, Holly* [shy_angel_07]
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2002-07-15 13:07:40 |
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ok i just read my comments from last entry...anonymous leave me alone i dont know who you are, or what you want. I never did anything to 'bring it on' im doing the best i can to stay clean and i have no-where else to go other than here. Just leave me alone please [scarletears2003]
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2002-07-15 08:37:47 |
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HEY, if anyone wants to read my diary it done now. Well it's only one there but it's there. lol holly [shy_angel_07]
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2002-07-14 21:50:59 |
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Hey Hun, I have been tring to catch you online. Please email me. qtpie8807@hotmail.com Holly [shy_angel_07]
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2002-07-14 21:48:08 |
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Hey I know life is rough but don't do the drugs. Please?! Email me and I can hopefully tell you my story and you can get past this terrible time in your life. Things will get better. They always do. I won't tell you things can't get any worse because somehow they always seem to. Please let me help you. [aphrodites]
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2002-07-14 18:46:07 |
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hey hun! i'm sorry you've had a rough week and stuff. =( but i'm glad you have someone as great as sarah to look after you. be greatful for that! i know you are. don't listen to what some idiot tells you. *coff coff anonymous coff* you don't deserve to be treated like that. i am so sorry about your baby. =.( i have no doubt you would have been a wonderful mother. you will have another child when the time comes...when you are ready. and i sincerly hope you will have a great husband/boyfriend when you have a kid. i think devon is a cool name! it's very pretty. thanks for your comments. i will ttyl! byes for now. ~pokey~ [pokeyluckyduckyinluv]
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2002-07-14 11:54:05 |
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Hey babe smile for me....bigger....ok thats Perfect! just do that everyday forever, lol and look in a mirror and smile! :) (: have a wonderful fullfiling day! [XCheer roxstrX]
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2002-07-13 20:31:38 |
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Hey, don't do anything major. Hang in there things will get better. Trust me. We need to talk. Email me sometime at dyeatman2001@yahoo.com I think I could help you. I have been through hell too. I have worked through my troubles and would know you need someone you can confide in. Someone you can trust. Don't let things get you so down and out. Life is short. To live your life you need to get past your past. Because all you have is the future. [Aphrodites]
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2002-07-13 15:13:48 |
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dunno what to say after that
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Good, please stay strong, and ignore the person who is being so horrible to you!!!! It not your fault- don't feel worthless!!!!!! God Bless [cant_think]
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2002-07-13 13:01:51 |
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I'm really sorry this had to come to you giving up your baby or more less getting it taken from you. You didn't deserve it and i promise if you need someone to talk to or just want someone for comfort i am always here. Holly* [shy_angel_07]
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2002-07-13 11:58:22 |
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dunno what to say after that
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no peanuts for you [Eternally Lost]
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2002-07-13 11:41:35 |
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might as well write it
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ok its NOT like it was her CHOICE to get an abortion...she clearly stated she would have been a good mom...so anonymous... F*CK OFF!!!! Aight?? [dipNdot5903]
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2002-07-12 22:23:47 |
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might as well write it
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thats very sad. :-*. ur so brave and have been through a lot. Stick in there kido. bye if u ever wanna talk my aim is metsguy33 [XMetz]
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2002-07-12 19:40:28 |
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might as well write it
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thx for sticking up for me everybody. ~Shannon~ [scarletears2003]
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2002-07-12 17:36:22 |
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you ignorant little asshole, leave me the fuck alone do u think I wanted to get pregnate? But ya know what i wasnt thinkin about it at the time i was thinkin about how i wished he wouldnt rape me again. And i wanted my baby more than anyone ever wanted you. DO you have any idea how much it hurts to know my babys dead? just leave me alone. [scarletears2003]
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2002-07-12 17:33:20 |
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You are so brave. I'm so proud of you that you were able to cope. No one should of made u do anything, it should of been your choice as a women. I'm just sorry that you had to lose your baby. [XCheer roxstrX]
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2002-07-12 16:38:20 |
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I can't express in words how sorry I am that this has happened to you. It's good that you're finally feeling able to talk to people about it. As for that Anonymous dude, just ignore the low down dirty son of a bitch. That's a disgusting way to try and get attention and using this for a source of it is the most foul thing that a... a... I can't even call the fucker a person... could do. Everything that freak said is a lie, so just pretend It didn't say anything. After all, the prick doesn't deserve to exist anyway. Luv *~Namie~* aka *DarkAngelButterfly* [DarkAngelsTormentMe]
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2002-07-12 14:21:31 |
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That is very said...i'm glad that you opened up and told your feelings.. I'm sorry that you had to give your baby away. your very brave to talk about it on ur diary. much love Elizabeth [redneck cheerleader]
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2002-07-12 12:49:54 |
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The anomynous person above made an unessceessairy comment- just ignore it!!!!! I think you are very brave- I am 13 now and if htat had happoened to me, I wouldn't have been able to cope!!!! [cant_think]
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2002-07-12 11:25:33 |
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might as well write it
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babies are a blessing but they are a big responsibility... that was a good poem... HsG [Feelings Inside Me]
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2002-07-12 09:08:02 |
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*ponders for a little while then jumps up shouting* I got it!!! The kid's on narcotics! Woohoo! Yes, well, sorry but that's the only way I can explain a kid that laughs at anything and everything. Lol. Luv *~Namie~* aka *DarkAngelButterfly* [DarkAngelsTormentMe]
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2002-07-12 00:04:15 |
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Hey, i haven't been on for awhile and right now im actully at the library...our ISP is screwed for a few weeks....but anyway...i am so glad u are there for her, sarah. She needs someone like u, we all do. Luv-Amber...hang in there hun i have faith in ya [amber_811_2004]
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2002-07-11 14:44:50 |
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Babies are the best. I babysit about 2/3 times a week for various people, and I just love being entertained by them! I've been sitting two of my girls for about 1 and half years, and Licia's almost 2 1/2 now! Geesh! They grow fast. Anyways, I hope your doing alright, and don't worry if people will hate you, you don't want to care what hateful people will think anyways. And its not THAT easy to hate someone! Hate's a huge word! Take care. [Iron Pill]
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2002-07-11 13:50:21 |
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If u would like someone to talk to my aim is metsguy33. [XMetz]
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2002-07-11 12:41:36 |
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I don't really, but I dunno. I agree with one of the comments above, your diary is v interesting!! (unlike mine...!!) [cant_think]
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2002-07-11 08:57:12 |
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All thee time. I know exactly how you feel. But they put me on meds...dammit and it sucks. I feel even stranger than I did before. It dpends on the person on whether or not hey'll hate you forever. People who HATED me are like my best friends now. It is a nice feeling to know that they care for me. Good Luck... ~melissa~ [dipNdot5903]
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2002-07-10 15:56:50 |
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hey girl!thanks for commenting on my diary!well cheer up and yes i kno that feeling to.cheer up. *love* *~*Me*~* [whispersweetwords]
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2002-07-10 13:19:24 |
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Thank you for the comment in my diary. I hope you're right. I like your diary, I've added you to my favorites. Take care. [LinkinParkChic]
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2002-07-10 00:49:41 |
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Yes sweetie... oh fuck yes, I know that feeling way too well... *~Ashes~* [Eternally Lost]
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2002-07-09 20:24:04 |
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hmmm what to write??
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haha, fun .. well if all else fails.. you can always think bout dookie butts.......*~Ashes~* [Eternally Lost]
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2002-07-09 19:13:07 |
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my life, my mess
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Even if it feels worse, it's better. You've just taken a huge weight off, even if you feel like the pressure hasn't gone, slowly it will. It would reall help to tell a therapist everything you've told Sarah, so they can help you. Just a thought. Take care. -Odelle- [Iron Pill]
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2002-07-09 12:00:06 |
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I agree, you will feel better in the long run. Guilt is not good when it builds up over time. And hey, thanks for signing my comment thing. [TigerGrad]
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2002-07-06 11:23:58 |
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In the long run you will be glad that you told her everything. [redneck cheerleader]
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2002-07-06 09:35:45 |
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thanks for commenting on my poems. and thanks for being so damn wide open in your writing. [cata_tonic]
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2002-07-05 18:00:08 |
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Thanks babe...that means a lot...and one thing...don't take your life...just think of the wonderful things you be giving up on...so many love you..yet you may not see it..cuz ur in ur own little world of depression..whatever has you down...make sure it gets you up..to where your happy..im not preaching but..there's so much life for you to go on about..that ending it all now..would be worthless..God bless...and keep an open mind.! (Mena) [Italianobabe1]
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2002-07-05 10:38:22 |
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When life has you locked into a cell of depression,and your confusion of Reality beats down your mind and heart.. just think.. tinker bell made it, so can you. *winks* [Eternally Lost]
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2002-07-04 16:44:07 |
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that shouldnt be happening to you, im so sorry. just remember someone somewhere loves you. even though you strive for your mothers love, you mite not get it. just ask her"mom what do i have to do to please you?" it mite work. im sorry. [XCheer roxstrX]
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2002-07-04 00:12:05 |
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oh honey. i am so sorry! please please please don't blame yourself for how she is. don't listen to her put downs. she is destroying you with those. just listen to your heart. people do love you. don't give up anything for that. that is the greatest gift of all. i'll ttyl. byes for now. ~pokey~ [pokeyluckyduckyinluv]
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2002-07-03 22:32:14 |
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Thank you for the kind comment in my diary, it was very nice of you!!! God bless [cant_think]
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2002-07-03 15:50:21 |
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Thank you for the kind comment in my diary, it was very nice of you!!! God bless [cant_think]
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2002-07-03 15:49:50 |
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im a mistake too!! i live in michigan and my mom is in italy cuz she ditched me off.she ditched me off on my sep-dad whch was NOT a good home....and then i got ditched off 2 my real dad which had signed off on me when i was little. my life is a disaster and basicly is trashed. in my diary though i write about all the good stuff that goes on and make my ife a lot better now then hang over my past. im getting better and i am scared of scissors and knives cuz my mom stabbed me in the ear with a pair when i was little. i have a fucked up life...plz get better!! i beg you!! i got better 4rm a miserable life now its my turn to help other people. plz try!! all of my heart and luck 2 u,kitty aka koolaid [koolaid8887]
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2002-07-03 13:36:06 |
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You are way underweight...i'm 5'1 and i'm 108.. I know what u mean about the mistake..i'm a mistake too..so my dad says..we can be mistakes together then...just remember that were the best mistake they ever made..I hope you get the help you need.. I know you have this feelings that are like..why are u doin this..but then u are so used to the routine that you can't get out of it...just stick with the help you have and hopefully you will fight through this...u sound like a strong person.. i have faith in u [redneck cheerleader]
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2002-07-03 00:17:27 |
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Hey Girl, I don't really know you, but my heart goes out to you :) You do deserve their help, you are important... I used to feel that way and at times I still do... But IT will be okay, You R a strong person :) And whether or not ur mom wants you there are others out there that need you whether u know it or not... you are here for a reason tho it may take some to time to find that reason and it is a GOOD reason :) God didn't put you here for nothin... PROMISE!!!! Luv, Me [ou_chic_2004]
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2002-07-02 23:39:39 |
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79 lbs. i weigh like 125 lbs. and im like 5'6". please just eat, if you dont eat, u will die, and i dont want you to die. [XCheer roxstrX]
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2002-07-02 23:38:59 |
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hiya girl! i'm glad you're feeling better. i know and so does everyone else...that you can do whatever you put your mind to! so if you want to stop, you can do it. we have faith. i'll ttyl! byes for now. ~pokey~ [pokeyluckyduckyinluv]
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2002-07-02 10:54:49 |
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Hey, Glad ur back :) Hope your okay, I have read a little of your diary and it is very interesting... :) G2G. {Peace} ME [ou_chic_2004]
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2002-07-02 01:26:26 |
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I'm glad your alright.. cutting can be such a pain in the ass.. especially when dealing with doctors. Well, glad your back!! hehe.. i love kids and fear them.. Much love, *~Ashes~* [Eternally Lost]
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2002-07-01 20:04:43 |
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Shannon, U CAN stop, i know it's gonna be hard but i have faith in ya, u are a very strong person...keep seeing your counsler, it'll help, it'll take time but it will help! Stay strong, i know u can do it, i believe in ya :) Luv-amber [marie811]
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2002-06-29 13:44:58 |
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hullo again. never stop trying...never give up. i wouldn't skip your meeting with your counselor. she's/he's just trying to help, and i'm sure you'll get better. i know it's hard for you. but keep trying. you'll get it! lots of luv, ~pokey~ [pokeyluckyduckyinluv]
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2002-06-28 15:52:31 |
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Hey, shannon. I know what you mean, about finally trying to stop, and it only gets worse. It just gets worse because when we try to stop something that's regular in our lives, and obviously is a big problem, we end up obsessing. A lot of dieters get the same problem, they think about not eating so much, they end up eating more then they did before they were trying to stop. I know what your feeling. Take care, and way to go on following what's in your heart with Allen. For some reson I always have troubles saying no to guys.. it's horrible! -Odelle- [Iron Pill]
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2002-06-28 12:47:39 |
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81! Okay, I'm jealous, but I'm not soposed to say that. I'm against anything pro ana... even though I do put that mind set on sometimes. Hey, I think it would be good for you to go out with Allen, in a group. If your gut instinct was that he was a good guy, and then you had your doubts, I think it would be good for you to be proved right, when he doesn't try anything. And, if he does.. just pull away, a nice guy will get the picture.. But I only want you to go if you know for sure he's a nice guy! Hehe.. sorry, that's prolly very confuseing. Take care. -Odelle- [Iron Pill]
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2002-06-27 19:55:50 |
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hey girly....wow 81lbs....remember food is your friend :)) and about this guy if you dont feel comfortable going with him then dont...its completly up to you.....and i know how it is not to trust guys its hard...but you will trust them again...eventually ;) ~tayson~ [punkkandytay]
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2002-06-27 18:05:04 |
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Hey, Scarlet. I think you'll be ok if you just start eating properly (without bringing it back up) and getting healthy and stuff. Your dreams can still come true! About this guy. You should not feel pressured into going out with him. When you feel comfortable completely with a guy, then go out with him. Just don't let yourself feel like you've got to. Luv *~Namie~* aka *DarkAngelButterfly* [DarkAngelsTormentMe]
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2002-06-27 15:19:58 |
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im about 5'5".. c ya [scarletears2003]
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2002-06-27 14:28:12 |
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81lbs! omg how tall are you first of all? u sound wayyy too tiny! stop it gain weight! lol go 2 mcdonalds everyday for the like ayear! lol k dont do that but seriously stress makes u lose weight so stop it! [XCheer roxstrX]
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2002-06-27 14:08:46 |
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i also forgot im down to 81pounds..dont know if thats good or bad rite now..c ya [scarletears2003]
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2002-06-27 13:44:50 |
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sorry bout that i dont know what happened,it poasted twice..sorry [scarletears2003]
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2002-06-27 13:19:53 |
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What have i done?
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oh by the way i have another diary on this website its under arguwitdat1 1-5 pgs for now *dessiree* [candyflavoredchick69]
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2002-06-26 22:15:43 |
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What have i done?
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hey thanx for the comment be careful with what u do in life every decison u make could effect how ur whole life and what happens during it well keep leaving comments if u like.later. *dessiree* [candyflavoredchick69]
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2002-06-26 13:57:30 |
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Hey, I really don't think you need to be totally freaking out just yet. But... soon maybe. I mean, its not like it's at the pointe where your hair is falling out, and your esophogaus is rupturing. But, let me tell you, it is a scary thought as I think you know. I've been bulimic 4 years now too (what a coincidence) and though it doesn't seem like I've really ruined myself yet, I kind of have. Back in January I started throwing up blood, dark thick blood, which meant my esophogaus was bleeding and the blood was coming from my stomach. It was so scary, I promised myself I'd never throw up again... but. here I am. I did cut it down, I didn't throw up for like two whole weeks, and even then, I wouldn't do it more then once or twice a week for a couple of monthes. My doctor scared me telling me my esophagaus was badly damaged, and if I continued, I might die... ! I mean, yeah, I always talk about wanting to be dead.. or not having a life, but I don't want to die accidently. I dont' want to die unless it was a planned out thing, and I wasn't ready to die yet. I didn't know bulimia would keep you from having kids.. but I do know that it's wacked up my monthly like non other. Take care darl, and let this relization be a lesson! [Iron Pill]
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2002-06-26 01:47:46 |
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Hey, thanx 4 the comment. I haven`t read ur diary yet, but I`ll find time!!Anywayz, I`m glad me n my bro get along, too... its great. TtYl * NiCoLe [Tell Me Stories]
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2002-06-25 10:32:11 |
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Hey Scarlet Thought I'd say Hello to you since you said Hello to me! So.. HELLO! *big hug* I read your most recent entry and it's great that you're doing better. You should definitely read the Harry Potter books and see the movie. they're a great uplifter if you're feeling down! Luv *~Namie~* aka *DarkAngelButterfly* [DarkAngelsTormentMe]
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2002-06-25 10:21:20 |
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i'm glad u didnt cut yourself today...i went to atlantic beach sunday..what beach did u go to ? I feel like cutting myself today [redneck cheerleader]
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2002-06-24 22:49:35 |
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we are gonna watch "kate and leapold" (sp?) c ya! [scarletears2003]
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2002-06-24 20:23:25 |
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the beach sounds like fun! i wish i could have gone. lol. what movie were u gonna watch? i watched 'don't say a word' yesterday. that's a good movie. i dunno if i've already told u that....o well. u heard it again! =) wellz, i'll ttyl. byes for now. ~me~ PS i hope your food stayed down! mmmm mmmm...yummy. crackers! i think i'll go get some.... [pokeyluckyduckyinluv]
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2002-06-24 19:25:34 |
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^ Sorry that should say..manda sarah and i I started a movie but mandas aunt (Sarahs l sister) came with her son ( mandas cuz, l sarahs newfew)..lol..sorry [scarletears2003]
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2002-06-24 19:17:18 |
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*yawn*
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My cat is an inside cat. If a bug comes in the house my cat runs up and down it acting like its on drugs or something.. It's funny [redneck cheerleader]
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2002-06-24 10:50:34 |
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thanks everybody! [scarletears2003]
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2002-06-24 09:51:53 |
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I hate this cycle!
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i sit here with my friends at times and watch them cut themselves for fun and it kills me because i saw my best friend slice her wrists in front of me 3 years ago when i was 12 and i couldn't help her and she died there's not a single day that goes by that i don't think about her and that day runs through my mind like a dream and i wonder what i could've done to helpor what i did wrong and my mind goes blank be careful with what you're doing get help for it because u never know who else u might be hurting besides yourself. good luck . candy [candyflavoredchick69]
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2002-06-23 13:25:42 |
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I'm sorry that you have found yourself doing this.. I used to do the same thing.. Cut and throw up.. My cutting never got so bad though.. My obsession with weight however did. i am here for you if you need me. [redneck cheerleader]
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2002-06-23 11:51:30 |
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Hey sweetie. I know how it feels to be stuck in the cycle. I think everyone's stuck in some kind of their own cycle in life. And it's always hard to get out. No matter what, there's going to be an immense amount of struggle. And I know when you try and fail it feels as though your the weekest link ever, and you'll never be able to be strong enough to get out. But I'm telling you, you are strong! Look what you've been through... you've survived. Your brilliantly strong. Remember that even if you dont' believe it just yet. I know what you mean about how pathetic an e.d can seem sometimes. It's just sad how stressed out and freaky I get if I eat.. I'll go into a huge tantrum and freak out on everyone... I get sweaty.. I end up pulling on my hair and shaking really strangely until I finnally throw up. And after I do throw up, I just get really shakey and quiet. It's really pathetic. But, it's just how things are. Take care darling. [Iron Pill]
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2002-06-22 20:08:04 |
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hmm, i've never done anything like that before. the cutting, i mean. well, i think that if it's become addictive, then you should think of something else to do...(that's good to your health), and try not to think about cutting. i'm really sorry this is happening to you. i hope some of my advice is help. i know you probably hear it all the time. but you help me alot, so i hope i am helping you. ttyl. byes for now! [pokeyluckyduckyinluv]
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2002-06-22 19:44:50 |
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hey i really hope you can get the help you need... i know how it is i used to cut to, it took me a lot of help and a long time to get over it...but i know you will to ;) laters ~tayson~ [punkkandytay]
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2002-06-22 19:17:37 |
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is anyone there for me?
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Blue can of steel what promise do you hold? salt flesh so ripe [mauree]
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2002-06-22 19:11:31 |
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Hey~ its good to hear mandas okay. I know what you mean bout thinking you look fat.. i don't weigh that much more than you, like 5 pounds more i think.. but i see myself as fat too. I hope you do get better, much love, *~Ashes~* [Eternally Lost]
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2002-06-22 10:19:40 |
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is LSD a drug? if it is that's pretty bad. the beach must have been fun! i wish i could go to a beach. maybe you should tell sarah. she'll probably know what to do. thanks for commenting! ttyl. byes [pokeyluckyduckyinluv]
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2002-06-21 22:31:37 |
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hey...i think that you should move in only if u feel like it would be the best thing...maybe if you move in things will go back to the way they used to be. So..think about all the options and consequences before making a decision...I'm glad you had fun on the rides.. don't listen to ppls rude comments... [redneck cheerleader]
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2002-06-21 14:56:51 |
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fun fun! i love the fast rides! i like your poems. i hope that whatever happens it will work out between you and your mom. plus your mom's b/f. thanks for writing in my comment sheet! ttyl. byes for now. ~me~ [pokeyluckyduckyinluv]
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2002-06-21 10:25:59 |
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your love ruined me
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I actually thought it was really good. Keep it up. Take care. [Iron Pill]
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2002-06-18 23:50:58 |
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your love ruined me
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Hey thanks, and I liked your poem. Don't listen to what that other person wrote. It's good to get that stuff out of your system no matter how old you are and now far or near in the past it is. [Tissla]
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2002-06-18 23:37:58 |
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your love ruined me
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that would be a good poem if you were 10...grow up [ItsFunToLose]
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2002-06-18 22:07:24 |
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Glad things are getting better. [babydudet]
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2002-06-16 16:07:03 |
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Shannon- I'm really proud of you with the no cutting/mia plan! Way to go!!!! ::cheesey yet sincere pat on the back:: I totally understand what you mean... every other person you encounter would find it incredibly more then easy not to self mutilate themselves for a day, or not digest what they've eaten. But I know how tough it is, and I'm supporting you all the way. Keep it up girl, if you ever need some support, I'm here to listen to ya!!!! take care! [Iron Pill]
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2002-06-16 14:43:26 |
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I don't get excited during these 'hoildays' either but anyways... I'm glad you stoped cutting, even if it was just one day. It still makes a difference. Yea, i like that site too. I think the quotes ther are cute lol [baby_devil28]
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2002-06-16 14:00:59 |
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Thanks for the comment and congrats on not cutting.. Thats one addiction I don't think I'll ever successfully break. Much love to you, *~Ashes~* [Eternally Lost]
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2002-06-16 13:57:39 |
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oh my gosh... how old are you sweetie? I'm sorry that your parents aren't their for you. That's wrong and irresponsible of them. It's not just irresponsible, but a parent is soposed to willingly love their child, not because it's their responsibility. ::hugs:: no wonder your so hurt in life. good luck, and I hope everything gets better for you, because no matter what, things can always get better. [Iron Pill]
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2002-06-14 02:46:52 |
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This is Sarah, Shannon sweetie i know it's going to be a long hard road for you but i'll be there with you every step you take and when you need to do it alone ill always be behind you to catch you if you fall. The only reason im not telling you this to your face is because your sleeping rite now but i love you and want to help. If I could i'd take all those feelings away for you and i'd put them on myself but i can't. All i can do is be here....lots of love, may your dreams be plesant tonite. love: Sarah [scarletears2003]
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2002-06-13 20:49:00 |
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hi, about 4 years, my parents don't care i live witha friend, razor blades saftey pins, broken glass, knifes andything shrp...good luck with everything. [scarletears2003]
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2002-06-13 20:29:13 |
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Hey.... I'm sorry your goal didn't go as planned. These things take so much time though. And giving up just once doesn't necassarily mean you've given up for good. How long have you been cutting? Have your parents seen the scarrs? My mom found the burns all over my arms back in December, and I had to start seeing my counseler more often, and my meds got switched.. everyone made such a big deal, but a few monthes later, all worry had been numbed.. so I started cutting....I really tried to stop doing it, because it hurt my parents so bad just to see the marks... like they blamed themselves.... but, I just couldn't help it. Well, they found the cuts up my arms, and everyone tried to send me to the hospitol... but that didn't happen... so, I'm stuck on cutting, but I've really been trying to keep from it because of the pain in my parents eyes. It's a rough deal. I dont' understand how hurting myself so bad can just feel so good... What do you use to cute btw? anyways, I do hope you'll take care, and know that I understand where your coming from. -Odelle [Iron Pill]
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2002-06-13 20:21:50 |
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AH! weird dream lol i hae thoes kinda dreams alot well see yas bye :) [DEATHorLIFE]
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2002-06-12 21:14:15 |
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I think ti is good your gaining weight cuz 89 pounds isn't that much. I hope everything works out for you. [babydudet]
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2002-06-12 13:38:15 |
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Christine, thanks, and im sorry i know im not fat but i still feel that way ya know? like i know the numbers should be higher but the mirror tells me diffrenly. so sorry and thanks. [scarletears2003]
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2002-06-12 12:30:33 |
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i'm the one that wrote that whole huge thing...i don't even know you, why did i spend soooo much time? because I CARE! and I CAN HELP! feel free to talk to me anytime, i'd love to help, i have been thru a lotta shit and i know what's right and wrong, i can help you with almost anything...becuz i'm been thru almost EVERYTHING! i look forward to talking/chatting with you. bye [littleblackpill]
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2002-06-12 01:32:36 |
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woah. i have read some of ur entrie b4...but i didn't really remember them...after reading that, i learned sooo much about u. anywayz...i can interpret dreams (as weird as that sounds) and it works. some of the dreams you've been having are pretty self explanitory. however, i've had similar experiences, such as: waking up crying, waking up screaming, or waking up startled and in a sweat. those dreams are ALWAYS very important and meaningful. Also, if u have a dream repeat, that is a sign that the dream is of importance and you have not been recognizing it, or giving it enough thought. if the reocurring dream in question is a nightmare, that is VERY SIGNIFICANT. plz think deeply about your nightmares, ESPECIALLY if you wake up screaming, OR if they repeat (even once)! if you're comfortable with it, i would love to help you out and analyze your dreams! about the abusive boyfriends (your mom's) i have a counseler as well (several, actually) and you MUST tell him/her about it! for one thing, these dreams are pressuring you to spill, and the scary dreams are foreshadows of what may come if you DON'T tell someone! if they are things that have happened in the past, the dream may be a sign of something that will reoccur! BE CAREFUL! if you do tell ur counselor, s/he will talk to you about it, and discuss the issue. before taking any actions, it is your counselors ethical and legal responsiblilty to talk to you about what s/he can do to solve the problem BEFORE taking any actions. what i'm saying is: when you tell your counselor, you will talk about it, and that will help you out A LOT! it will make you feel much, much better and much, much safer! if you worry that she'll call the cops or tell someone and you may get caught or in trouble. that's virtually IMPOSSIBLE! for one, your counselor (by law) has to ASK for YOUR PERMISSION to take any actions. YOU have to give her/him the 'go ahead' before s/he can DO ANYTHING! you will NOT get in truouble for telling someone, you can only gain. don't worry about the reprocussion, there won't be any if you tell your counselor IMMEADIATLY!!!! and you will be protected at all times, and nothing will happen to you for telling the TRUTH! just do it!!! trust me, i have experience with this, and if you don't tell someone, you will suffer, your mother will suffer, and other women and girls will BECAUSE you didn't tell anyone. just think about it, if u leave this sick, physco, bastard on the loose, he will rape again, and MORE! IT IS YOUR DUTY AND RESPONSIBILITY TO TELL SOMEONE AND SAVE OTHERS FROM THIS SEXUAL HARASSMENT AND HUMILIATION! i cannot stress enough how important it is to TELL SOMEONE!!!basically, there will be many benifits if you DO tell your counselor, and many dangers if you DON'T! listen to your subconcious! it's trying to tell you something!!! good luck with everything, i know ull make the right choice. i did. and i'm proud. [littleblackpill]
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2002-06-12 01:30:31 |
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My name is Kristin...I hate it...but oh well...until next time...Goodbye... [suicidemission]
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2002-06-10 18:31:36 |
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I'm glad Shannon has someone like you to look after her. [babydudet]
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2002-06-10 17:55:21 |
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Hi Sarah. My name is Betsy and I've been corresponding with Shannon for a couple weeks now. I told her to e-mail me as someone else to talk to outside of you and Manda. Judging from most of what I read and what she has told me, you pretty much are a mother to her, and I'm glad she has someone like you there for her. I think she will be fine, and I've told her that I hope to keep corresponding with her because I feel a lot like her big sis. Again, I'm glad you're there for her. Peace and love. [Tissla]
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2002-06-10 16:25:35 |
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suicidal people have no place in this world, why dont you do us all a favor and kill yourself instead of pity mooching off people in hopes of feeling important, no, acting depressed does not make us think you are emotionally "deep" ...make that next cut a little deeper because you waste my oxygen, stop breathing... [ItsFunToLose]
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2002-06-10 11:26:25 |
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nobody wants me, i give up on the whole life
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Well if she said that stuff about u she wasn't a real friend. U should find a friend who really cares about u. I don't think it would be better if u died. U seem like a really nice person, pretty soon u'll be moving out on ur own and won't have to put up with everyone's crap. I hope everything gets better for u. [babydudet]
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2002-06-09 22:31:01 |
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Hello, My best friend is a cutter to, and although Idon't know what it's like I know what it can do to a person. She used to be suicidal also, but we tried to show hre the importance of life. You would be missed by sooo many people including relatives and friends. Good luck! *~*Katie's*~* [ShOrTNSwEeT28]
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2002-06-09 15:59:40 |
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i sooooooo know how that is! you just feel like you're gonna spill your guts and all that when they talk about things like that. but you never know...sometimes the best thing is to tell someone how you feel. [pokeyluckyduckyinluv]
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2002-06-09 13:29:57 |
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What's the point? Yeah, I ask that all the time. Thanks for commenting in my diary. I really needed to feel better that day. [A_Girl_Named_Me]
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2002-06-09 00:39:42 |
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speaking of death I had a dream where I think I was at my own funeral, and it was really creepy because I wanted everyone to see me, especially this one guy who was standing in the corner drinking out of a water bottle. He looked really sad, and then when he came over to where I was, it was like he was looking right through me, and couldn't see me, and was almost crying. Then before he finished filling up his water bottle right behind me, he touched my hand and left, and I've been freaked out about that dream ever since. I just thought I'd share with you...it was strange [Tissla]
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2002-06-08 21:16:04 |
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Sure...you can use my poem...who are you gonna say wrote it? [suicidemission]
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2002-06-08 20:20:58 |
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Sorry u r going though all this shit. I hope life gets better for u. [babydudet]
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2002-06-07 22:18:24 |
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Thanks for the compliment you seem like your going through some crap. Hope things get better, stop by my diary more! Lata! ~~>Chrissy [SeCreTSwEety143]
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2002-06-07 18:49:58 |
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thanks for liking my poem!!! i never thought anyone would. you know, people say things that they don't mean, and maybe that's the case with your mom...don't do anything you'll regret. i hope ur life gets better!! =) [pokeyluckyduckyinluv]
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2002-06-07 18:19:57 |
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im happy today!
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that's good to hear. have many more happy days! =D [shy_M3A]
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2002-06-06 22:45:23 |
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im happy today!
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I'm glad u had a good day!!!! [babydudet]
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2002-06-06 16:52:15 |
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im happy today!
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congrats to you for having a great day! Way to go girl! peace and love [Tissla]
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2002-06-06 14:11:47 |
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hey girl! I read back a few entries, and I just was wondering how tall are you? If you are super short I can see you weighing 90 but otherwise, you need to EAT!! guys like big booties! trust me, i got one! LoL. but hey do me a favor will you? go to www.bodycage.com. see that picture? now click the link under it to see the other picture. yep. that girl is about dead. and its gross to look at her!! please dont do this to yourself! [HiLLyWeE]
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2002-06-06 12:39:58 |
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some ppl called me today i guess news gets around fast. they said stuff like 'im glad ur ok' they just dont get it im not ok i just didnt succeed it's not that im not gratefull for what i DO have its that i hate myself so much i want to be non-exestant. oh well i'll put that that happy smiling mask of me we've all come to love. g-night [scarletears2003]
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2002-06-03 20:54:30 |
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I'm glad ur okay. [babydudet]
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2002-06-03 20:19:23 |
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Oh god u better not have killed urself. I love reading ur diary and u deserve to live u seem like a great person!!!!!!!!!!! [babydudet]
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2002-06-02 20:53:01 |
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I just read your entire diary.. I don't think you should worry about your mom at all if she lets you be raped by her boyfriends and allows herself to be beaten by them. She deserves no respect at all. I think you should have Sarah legally adopt you, so you won't have to depend on your sad excuse for a mother for anything. You don't deserve the stuff she's put you through and it sounds like Sarah is trying her best to be a good mother to you. So let her... *KaiTe* [ReTrO VeGGiE]
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2002-06-01 11:01:55 |
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Thanks for commenting on my entries! I had to change names because I can't access my old one any more. It's not that different, just a space. [Trying Hard]
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2002-05-30 23:47:32 |
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i dont have an ed [scarletears2003]
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2002-05-30 20:18:23 |
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Awwww... dnt ask wot i mean by tht coz i seriously dnt know & i wil email u! bt u dnt hav 2 botha replying [teenlife sux]
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2002-05-30 15:23:23 |
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- asharose-- no im not pregnate, i thought i was but im not [scarletears2003]
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2002-05-30 14:51:40 |
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omg your pregnant... have you told manda's mom? Maybe she could help you. I would talk to her if anything not really your mom b/c well i doubt she would say anything really worth hearing... Also maybe you should look into adoption services and decide what your going to do about the baby...~asha [asharose]
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2002-05-29 21:35:28 |
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thanks 4 the comment ill have to spend all my free time learing how to spell now.. [scarletears2003]
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2002-05-29 19:47:56 |
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Hi. It sounds like a pretty shitty situation you've got there, but I just want you to know, that although I can't predict what's gonna happen in the future, I think that there are some smarts in you and common sense that will come in handy some way. and I think your mom is scared, and maybe you should talk to her even if you think she won't want to hear what you have to say...and if you wanna just have a chat with some random anonynous person, you can e-mail me at cosmicgurlie@hotmail.com I'm around and I'll listen if you can't feel like you can talk to anyone else... [Tissla]
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2002-05-29 19:44:56 |
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You should learn how to spell. [Cyberspace Sniper]
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2002-05-29 19:43:53 |
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i sure hope your mother will be okay...sometimes when you are in the middle of a situation you don't think clearly- perhaps she will realize that she deserves much better than some idiotic abusive jerk. [like_antigone]
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2002-05-29 19:37:43 |
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YEAH BUDDY........ i'm happy for you! [asharose]
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2002-05-29 16:00:45 |
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Hey i didnt runa way:) y did u sayi wuz Soo luky??? [canadiangurl]
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2002-05-29 14:09:33 |
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Hey thanks for the comment...send me a message if u want at kguminski@yahoo.com...bye [suicidemission]
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2002-05-28 20:44:17 |
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great song :) [DEATHorLIFE]
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2002-05-27 23:11:31 |
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I love that song! I find comfort in it. I heard it the other day while I was cutting, and I just stopped for once, and felt like someone understood. Keep in touch and take care of yourself! [Melissa15]
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